Friday, January 31, 2014

Tell me once again who I am to You.

I've been struggling spiritual with some things for awhile. And I've been working through some "homework" that an elder of the church gave me. One of the questions to wrestle with is- Why am I afraid to be still before God? Quiet time is hard for me. For a lot of reasons. And as I'm working through these reasons one by one God is reminding me who I am to Him.

Recently, God has been teaching me to stay disciplined. That one of my biggest struggles with having quiet time is actually having quiet time. "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11. This single verse brings me so much hope right now. It acknowledges that my struggles are real and difficult. And it assures me that they are not for nothing. 

Today- which has consisted of sleeping in, quiet time, eating breakfast at 11:00, and doing some dishes- I can't help but feel like my quiet time this morning was not enough. I'm washing dishes and feeling I'm not giving enough to God. KLove is playing and I sing through some of the songs. When I here "Remind me, once again, who I am to you..." I can't help but run to the radio, turn it up, and just embrace my God who is calling down to me- "You are mine. You are loved. That is enough."

When I lose my way,

And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don't wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can't remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

I'm the one you love,

I'm the one you love,
That will be enough,
I'm the one you love.

God, thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for listening to the cries of my heart. Thank you for teaching me to stay in your presence and in your Word. Help me to continue to hunger and thirst for you. Amen.

1 comment:

Waitingfaithfully said...

Oh my girl, how I love you, and how I see so much of me in you. And sometimes it's the hard stuff--the insecurities and the feeling like you have to carry the whole world . . .and it gets heavy . . . and I wish it weren't that part of me in you. And then He gently reminds me that you are Taylor-made by Him (and so am I), and those insecurities are only because He made you so very sensitive, and that carrying-the-whole-world-thing is because He tailor-made you to be so very compassionate. And it's in the clinging to Him, and remembering who you are in Him, where He will help you find the balance of it all.

And He is good, always.

And you are His beloved, always.

And I love you, always.